Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All 2

I have to be honest, when I first read Rhonda Byrne’s The Secret, my first thought was “what load of shit is this?”  Considering myself pretty spiritual, I do believe in reincarnation and Fate.  I own multiple tarot and oracle decks and even *gasp* a Ouija board.  Currently, as I type, a Citrine crystal is empowering me with self-esteem and mental focus.  So, through my constant soul searching, it hit me, Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All.

The Mission: To ponder the possibility that Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All.  Maybe there is truth to getting what you put out in that vast Universe.

First, a little background information for you.  For more than half my life, I have dreamed, lived and breathed for a permanent teaching career.  Ever since I started Kindergarten and through my school career through college, I have not only learned as a student, but I observed the teaching styles of my countless teachers.  Thinking about teaching was my life.  I was fortunate enough that I landed a teacher’s aide job once I graduated college.  Not to mention, it was the perfect stepping stone or foot in the door or open door (choose whichever cliché you prefer) for my new career path.

My aide job turned into two years of long-term substitute positions.  I was professionally evaluated, participated in curriculum development meetings and was a part of the teaching world that I had always dreamed of.  I was in heaven.  My evaluations were excellent, I had a wonderful rapport with the students and their parents, and I had great professional relationships with my colleagues and superiors. 

Once my long-term positions ended, the district held interviews for two permanent openings.  Elation consumed my soul.  I went through three rounds of interviews which I know I nailed.  Trusting my intuition and how the administrator congratulated me on my way out of the final interview only established my confidence.  However, politics were already in place.  Little did I know, they already had someone in mind.  August fifth (I’ll never forget the date), is when I got my world crushing rejection phone call. 

It has taken me YEARS of soul searching and pondering why my Fate turned out the way it did.  Quite honestly, I am still in a whirl-wind of puzzlement as to why things didn’t work out.

I’m getting to the point…

My point is – I have spent 25 plus years putting teaching and my career out in the Universe.  I have thought about nothing else.  Who I was going to marry, how many kids I will have or what kind of house I’ll live in never crossed my mind.  All I thought about was my teaching philosophy, positive behavioral reinforcements, my teaching style, and my classroom setup.  To say that I threw that out into the Universe, is a drastic understatement. 

I cursed The Secret and its philosophy.  I scoffed at the thought of getting back what I put out in the Universe.  It wasn’t until recently, that it hit me: Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All.

What did I put out in the Cosmos? I sent out vibes of teaching and envisions of myself in a classroom.  Like a ton of bricks crashing, it dawned on me.

I did teach. 

My teaching philosophy was solid.  The positive behavioral reinforcements I set in place supported my classroom rules.  My teaching styles encouraged all of my students to strive for achievement.  And my classroom setup was beyond accommodating for each learning style and personality of each student.  The outstanding, positive feedback from my students, their parents, colleagues and administrators only solidified that I was an awesome teacher.

I did everything that I put out in the Universe.  I did it and I accomplished it successfully.  So Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All.  The only problem that I have struggled with after all these years, was it wasn’t long enough.  I also feel that I set my personal expectations too high for myself.  That was my one and only dream.  I put so many eggs in one basket and if I would have just known how to Avoid Intense Disappointment, I would have been able to avoid the trauma that soon followed.

And maybe it’s because Fate and the Universe have a different plan for me.  Maybe teaching, in the long run, wouldn’t have been the best fit for my Life Journey.  This is, after all, My Journey Called Life and although I don’t have the answer as to why, I just have to TRUST my Journey.

The Moral: In the profound words of Journey, Don’t Stop Believin’.  Trust yourself and trust your Journey Called Life.  Everything happens for a reason whether or not you understand it.  It can be infuriating or depressing especially with your High Hopes, but just keep going.  Try to come to terms with how your Life is panning out and trust your path because Perhaps The Secret Isn’t So Secret After All.

Enlighten, Encourage & Embrace your Journey Called Life.

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